Sunday, 14 March 2010

A Special Day, For a Special Woman

As per Anonymous, who we thank, left on the comments:

Transcript of Aled Jones interview with Kate McCann:

Aled - Does Mothering Sunday, itself bring mixed emotions?  

Kate - It does and it doesn’t. I mean, every day to be honest is quite difficult. I guess Mothers Day is another reminder really that Madeleine is not here. I think motherhood is a real gift and obviously I’ve got three children, and it’s a reminder that one of my babies isn’t with me but you know I’m still Madeleine’s mum, and I always will be. 

Aled - How do you cope with a day like Mothering Sunday?  

Kate - I guess it’s a little bit different now I think because we are working so hard perhaps days where we would have maybe done something really special we don’t necessarily, certainly Mothers Day, I think birthdays are different, children’ s birthdays and things but I think we just get through it like any other day really. 

Aled - Do you get lots of support from family?  

Kate - Oh we’ve had amazing support I mean our family has been great and that’s an important point really because everyone in our family has suffered and is going through a lot of pain and anxiety and we are all missing Madeleine, but we’ve all got to try and support each other 

Aled - And what about your other children how aware are they of what is happening?  

Kate - Very aware they talk about Madeleine every day they know she is missing they know she has been taken by somebody. They understand it a little bit like burglary, in that even if you really want something it doesn’t mean that we can take it because Madeleine belongs to us you know and it’s not right that they’ve got Madeleine and we need to find her but they talk about finding her, about you know finding Madeleine, and running away with her and coming back home. And even things like when we go on holiday they say ‘oh what will happen if the police find Madeleine and we are not there?’ And we say ‘oh don’t worry our next door neighbours will let us know.’ And they are very aware but they are very positive, they will always talk about, ‘ when Madeleine comes home’ Sean said to me the other week, well Amelie said to me “ Why do you work mummy?” and I said well “I’ve got to find Madeleine” and Sean said “ Yes mummy but when that’s OVER, when Madeleine is home what will you do?” (Kate sighs) and you think bring it on. 

Aled - Does that help?  

Kate - It does. They always say out of the mouths of babes. You know they are really positive and it really does keep us going. I think in years to come I’ll be able to tell Sean and Amelie just how important they have been in our life keeping us going and getting us through it all. 

Aled - What effect has time had on you, has time healed at all? 

Kate - It’s always funny that line isn’t it ‘time is a healer’ I think the wounds are less raw, the pain doesn’t go away, and the anxiety is always there. I’ m definitely a lot stronger than I was a year ago which is positive. It’s funny as sometimes you beat yourself up about it because I think how come I am doing okay and I’m coping better than I was that’s not right, because nothing has changed for Madeleine but yeh it’s important that I am because I’ve got three children, one to look for and two to look after, and it’s important that I can cope. 

Aled - Do you feel guilty at being happy in a way then?  

Kate - Yeah there is that element. I mean I know it’s okay to be happy and it’s important for Sean and Amelie that we do have happy times but there is a little bit of guilt really and a little bit discomfort in being able to adapt I guess. 

Aled - How important a word is ‘hope’ for you? 

Kate. - Oh very important we’ve obviously got hope, we’ve got a lot of hope really a lot of hope, hope that Madeleine is still alive. Obviously the difficult task is trying to find her but whilst there is hope we’ll keep going and certainly we’ll never give up.. 

Aled... - So what is Madeleine like?  

Kate - Erm someone you just want everyone to meet her cos, erm she’s just an amazing little character full of personality loads of energy, quite knowing, erm , really funny and loving and you know her relationship with Sean and Amelie, it’s incredible really and that ‘s something which still gets to me at times. When I see them playing and they start talking about Madeleine, again, you know,when we were away Sean was digging in the sandpit and I said “What are you doing?” he said “ I’m digging up buried treasure mummy and I’m going to give it to Madeleine.” And you just kind of think really, what would it be like for the three of them to be together?  

Aled - What are some your most treasured memories? 

Kate. - Oh my God there’s lots. I used to take Madeleine swimming on a Saturday morning and she used to have this really tight swimming cap on and I’d be watching through the glass and she was the youngest there, she was only three and she would just walk along on her own really confident and get in and these huge eyes would be looking at me through the glass and shed just be waving you know, hi mummy and I’d be texting Gerry saying she has got me crying again, and just lying with her you know and conversations, it had got to the stage where me and Madeleine would go to lunch together you know and it felt like a real girls day out.

Aled - I know you are a person of faith which I would like to talk about after we have had some music I don’t know if you listen to music at all? 

Kate - No, we do, we listen to a lot of music it’s been a little bit strange to be honest because since Madeleine was taken from us I actually struggled quite a lot to listen to music and I actually put classical music on rather than anything remotely, I guess, happy, with lyrics or stuff dance type music anything like that but gradually I am able to listen to it again now.  

Aled - And what would you like to listen to today? 

Kate - Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. 

Aled - Why Snow Patrol?  

Kate - This is a song that both, myself and Gerry really liked and in fact after Madeleine had gone it was a song that was quite difficult to listen to, actually it kind of it made us both quite upset because it reminded us of happy times of Madeleine but at the same time it reminded us of Madeleine. So, from that point of view it is quite a special song and I think the lyrics if I just lay here will you lie with me and Madeleine would often used to say at bedtime lie with me mummy lie with me daddy and they were really special vivid moments. 


Aled - Is every day bad?  

Kate – No, not every day is bad but it is strange I can have three or four days where the days just go, basically I am working I am looking after Sean and Amelie, I get through a day get up same for the next day, and then something can suddenly out of the blue just really upset me and it can be something quite innocuous it can just trigger something, makes you aware that you don’t have to scratch too far below the surface for that emotion to come bubbling out. You get through it, I mean luckily two of us together are quite a ‘unit’ really, usually one of us can pull the other one up when needs be. 

Aled - What does it feel like having worlds glare on you? 

Kate - I think you take it for granted really what being anonymous was like it’s been very hard I mean I’m not the most confident person on the planet and I’d never be a someone who would get up and give a presentation at work or anything I’d try avoid it like the plague but we’ve obviously been forced into this situation. 

Aled - You’ve changed a lot as well haven’t you because in the beginning you were very much in the background whereas now you are not?  

Kate - Absolutely, I think I was just, obviously I was going through a lot of pain and distress but also I was just really uncomfortable being in the spotlight and then I had to kind of say to myself’ well why are we doing it, we’re doing it to try and find Madeleine and it’s not about me and it doesn’t matter how uncomfortable I feel you know it’s Madeleine we are trying to help. Forget about me move on get over it.’ 

Aled - Are there times when you don’t feel strong?  

Kate - Oh Yeh yeh, there are have been a lot of things in the last almost three years, erm not even just Madeleine being taken from us, which was obviously the worst, but there has been many things that have happened subsequently and they can also be really low times dark times when you do doubt your faith I have to be honest, but at the same time it’s strange, because we’ve been through that, I do believe there is a greater good and in some ways it kind of strengthens my faith really. 

Aled - Because in a way because what you are experiencing for many people would be hell on earth?  

Kate - No, it is. I think it the worst thing that could happen to a parent certainly one of the worst things I mean the pain is just, just incredible and it’s the pain of worry for her really I mean we live with the sadness of not having Madeleine in our lives but you know I’m her mum and I can’t help but worry about her and I just want to be with her, if she has a sore tummy I want to be there, when she is upset I want to be there. I just want to bring her back into the warmth and love of our family. 

Aled - Are there ever times when you blame God?  

Kate - I’ve never blamed God for what happened, at all. I don’t think that was anything to do with God. There are times when I’ve got angry with God and certainly the, the additional things that I have mentioned that have happened where I just think why can we have extra suffering put on us at such an awful time and I just haven’t understood it and I wondered why God hasn’t interceded and tried to counter that. These are the times when I go off to the church to be honest, I mean I’ve got a key to the church they’ve kindly given me one sometimes I go in and oh it’s a bit of a sanctuary a bit of a refuge I’ll go and I can speak out – because obviously there’s no one there – just get it all off my chest really. I mean I do wonder you know why should God help my prayers when there are millions of people with prayers which are equally as important around the world, I don’t know I mean I just hope he does but, my faith has really sustained me I think a lot through all of this and it is a definite comfort there. 

Aled - Has your faith changed at all?  

Kate - I think it has probably got stronger definitely I think before all this happened that I’d never really had to question my faith you know it was there I believed in God I’d had little conversations with God in my head but I never really had to challenge it I was just comfortable with my relationship with my faith and with God but it’s definitely got stronger now it’s probably more intense. Em the day I was made arguido was quite an interesting day with regards to my faith I’d had a period of about 4 to 6 weeks prior to that where there had obviously been a shift in the investigation and suddenly none of the police were talking to us, we couldn’t have a meeting people didn’t want to have phone conversations with us, I mean we were left in this awful void of information really, so we were trying to cope with the pain of not having Madeleine but also not having any information and not knowing at all what was going on and then that led on to the period when suddenly there were these awful stories coming out in the media about supposed blood in the apartment, basically pointing the finger at us then obviously that subsequently finished with us being arguido and the day I was going in for my arguido interview was quite a strange day because I had been really low and feeling quite weak and fragile and then suddenly I just felt really strong, I mean I was angry, I was angry that people hadn’t been looking for Madeleine but also I just thought to myself ‘ I know the truth and God knows the truth and nothing else matters’ and I just felt really strong from then I felt a real inner strength.  

Aled - Do you think God is looking after Madeleine?  

Kate - I do, I mean to me Madeleine was a gift, most our life is pretty public anyway, but you know obviously we had quite a difficult time trying to have Madeleine and when she was born I really did believe she was a gift and I never took her for granted you know every day when I’d wake up and I’d see these huge eyes looking at me and I’d say thank God for Madeleine. I don’t believe he would stop loving her now or abandon her and I don’t believe that at all, and I do get a comfort in thinking that that wherever she is whoever she is with that he is with her and protecting her, protecting her spirit and she’s got a lot of spirit. (Kate laughs)  

Aled - Do you find that your prayers have changed over the years? .

Kate - I guess a little bit more directed now. The prayer that I used to say all the time was to, to keep the family, thank God for my family to keep Gerry Madeleine Sean and Amelie safe healthy and happy I always said that, which when it happened, to be honest was a little bit of a struggle as that was the one prayer that I said all of the time. I pray for lots of things now really, obviously I always pray for the family obviously most of the prayers are centred on Madeleine really but I pray for the people who’ve taken Madeleine the people who know what has happened to Madeleine, and the people around/ related to the person who has taken Madeleine. And I pray for the police and the investigators, people who are looking for her and I pray for all the other children who are missing or have been exploited in some way, because in some ways, funny to say lucky, but we have been lucky we’ve had a lot of support from the general public in particular people we don’t know we’ve had incredible support and there are many families out there whose children have gone missing and you don’t hear about it. 

Aled - Gerry said his faith has been strengthened by the goodness generated by this ordeal so there are positives that have come out of it?  

Kate - Ah very much so. We still get a bundle of mail every day from people, you know willing us on sending their best wishes. Children send pictures for Madeleine and stuff, and you know we have books of prayers sent for Madeleine that children have written. It’s been amazing. It’s been a real eye opener, you know I’d have never thought of sitting down and writing a letter to someone I didn’t know who’d suffered tragic event and yet the strength it has given us is amazing. 

Aled - It would be understandable for you to be filled with hate and anger and rage and yet you’re not at all?

Kate - I’ve had my moments if I went back to 2008 I think I did probably have a lot of anger on board and it’s such a horrible negative emotion . I’m pleased to say that, that anger has gone now and I feel so much better than I did in 2008. 

Aled - Do you think you’d ever be able to forgive the people who took Madeleine? 

Kate - That’s a difficult one isn’t it? I guess I don’t know why they’ve taken her and I think until I know that it would be hard, hard to say. I’d like to hope that I could but it’s difficult. 

Aled - On Mothering Sunday do you have a message for other mothers who may be experiencing similar emotions to what you are going through?  

Kate - Yeah I think erm – long pause- , dig deep really, just keep hoping and be around your family and friends, really gather their love, surround yourself with positive people but dont’give up. Aled - Thank you for talking to me



    Kates choice of song for today. It is a beautiful song I had not heard before. The words are emotive .


    I dedicate this song to my mother, who would have cried listening to the words. Also, to Madeleine wherever she may be.

    Thanks Tex.

  3. Viva!

    Como sabe,leio os blogues que considero importantes para esclarecimento deste triste caso,o de Madeleine!

    Também leio os comentários por serem o complemento em informações.

    Mas,hoje devo estar obtusa,Textusa.
    A imagem: A McK santificada e o diabo rodeia o Globo Terrestre.
    Não sei se estará relacionada com uma resposta Sua a outro Blogger de quem gosto(um dos últimos comentários,neste momento e noutro local ,aqui).

    Nessa Sua resposta há uma parte com a qual (relacionado com este cantinho à beira mar) com o qual me identifico.

    Voltando: Ironside diz que a música é linda e emotiva.Acredito.Não sei inglês,portanto não compreendo a letra.

    Aqui na transcrição a McK dá a explicação. Óbviamente que perder um Filho/a é um horror,CLARO. Acredito que lhes dói mas também acredito nos blogueres que sigo.

    O desenho: a McK é uma santinha e o Mundo (todos) é muito mau? Para eles?

    A opinião de TTW4 baralhou-me. Como se vai perceber as verdades?

    Estamos impedidos,não é?

    Hoje,escrevi m u i t o ,para o meu costume.

    A McK é uma santinha e o Mundo(os outros) que ardam no Inferno?

    Realmente a idade não perdoa( a minha,claro).

    Boa noite,


    Text: vou copiar esta Sua imagem para a minha pág. mas coloco ao mesmo tempo a canção que Ironside fala.

  4. "none of the police were talking to us, we couldn’t have a meeting people didn’t want to have phone conversations with us, I mean we were left in this awful void of information"...
    I think it was the other way around - 48 unanswered questions, right? Also, the Police doesn't usually come round for tea and a biscuit with the suspects, or the CEOP booklets you and Gerry had at the PDL rental didn't cover that chapter?
    Good thing it's not 'Mothering day' in Portugal or it would ruin it for me.
    Thanks for posting and to annonymous for the transcription.

  5. Ironside: so sweet You are!

    To Mad die wherever she may be....

    ( cpoiando até "sei" inglês!

    A nice night to Iron and Text!

  6. Maria,

    The McCann message is their own sanctification.

    Those against them are evil.

    The whole world doesn't believe them, so the whole world is evil.

    That includes you. And me. And Ironside. And my next door neighbour. And... And...

  7. Boa Noite Maria,aqui son las palabras en Ingles.

    We'll do it all, everything
    On our own
    We don't need,anything
    Or anyone

    If I lay here
    If I just lay here
    Would you lie with me and just forget the World

    I don't quiet know,how to say, how I feel

    Those three words,are said too much,there not enough

    If I lay here, if I just lay here

    Would you lie with me and just forget the world

    Forget what we're told

    Before we get old

    Show me a garden thats bursting into life

    Lets waste time,chasing cars around our house

    If I lay here

    If I just lay here

    Would you lie with me and just forget the world

    Forget what we're told

    Before we get too old

    Show me a garden thats bursting into life

    All that I am

    All that I ever was

    A tear in your perfect life,there, all I can see

    I don't know when

    Confused about how, as well

    Just know that these things will never change for us at all

    If I lay here

    If I just lay here

    Would you lie with me and just forget the world

  8. Maria, el otro cancion tiene subtitulo en Castellano.

  9. Had to bring this over, from a poster on Joanas site a letter he/she sent to BBC.
    Sent to the BBC today

    Could Aled Jones or the BBC please provide the evidence Madeleine McCann was abducted. I pay a licence for impartiality, not propaganda! Where are your facts, do you not have news editors and researchers?

    The BBC is helping perpetuate fraud on a massive scale, whilst totally disregarding the findings of the Portuguese and British police.

    This is not acceptable in any organisation funded by the tax payer and I would like to know who authorised this deceit within the BBC.

    I would like a factual reply not waffle!

  10. Daily Mail 'It just does'nt add up'

    The irony.

  11. PART ONE

    If you switched on the radio this Sunday then you've only got yourself to blame. The BBC have embraced Sunday with all the fervour of a Southern Baptists bulging wallet, and this Mothering Sunday it was no different. Only worse. The combination of Mother Love and Religous imagery was one too good for the McCann media machine to pass up and sure enough Kate McCann appeared on a Mothering Sunday extravaganza of emotional indulgance. It was a radio show in which the incense of the high altar alerted us to the possibility that the beautification of Kate McCann for services to Motherhood was barely moments away. The BBCs Adoration of Kate McCanns was made whole with a eulogy of excruciating cathartic agony which by any stretch of the imagination was orgisitic even by the BBCS generous standards, dare I say it, it was even of ungodly proportion.

    It was all quite shameles and quite sickening the manner in which the BBC insist upon administering the sugar coated pill of cosy Christain teaching to the zillions of middle Englanders who I am about to ostracise forever from my blog. This is not a comfortable place to discuss religion. I have little time for it myself. That having been said we all have the right to self determination in such matters and that right entitles all that should they so wish to do so, they are free to listern to the BBCs pure and putrid undiluted and sickening moral verison of Christain teachings that is beamed across our airwaves and into our homes on a daily basis. For me it is only ever reason enough not to listern to the radio on a Sunday or a 7:50am on weekdays. Societys need for religion is not my issue, it is only that I have no need for a religion of any variety to tell me how to live my life, or to tell me that I should live my life in such a way as to respect my fellow human beings right to life and all that this encapuslates.

    In this regard Christain dogma or religous dogma or any other variety, however it comes disguised, is a stomach churning experience in the extreme. Speaking of disguises Kate McCann featured on the the Aled Jones Mothering Sunday show 'Special' today and on it she poured out her so Christain heart out to all the listerners who were, and you could just tell they were, hanging on every devious dupliticous and dastardly word that Kate McCann mouthed.

    The interviewer was the 39 year old Welsh born again singer of christain pop songs and MOTR (middle of the road) singer of cover versions, Aled Jones. A man with a naked passion who has found that his pays days are far more frequent and far more meaningful if they are in the service of his God with his bountious love and forgiveness.

  12. PART TWO

    Looking at the transcript, after having heard the broadcast, Jones asked all the right questions of Kate McCann and these unsurprisingly elicited all the right answers from a grateful and very cooperative Kate McCann. Here it was that all questions would warrant an answer, and an answer was found for each and every question no matter however purile or insincere it might have at first appeared. Here Kate McCann had all the time in the world to talk as here Kate McCann was amongst friends and here there would be no uncomfortable or unhelpful questions about the whereabouts of Madeleines' body or of her and her husbands movements on the night of the 3rd of May 2007.

    The banter was at all times that of concerned parent with a few sweet family rememberances thrown in for good measure. This along with the BBCs' version of normal family steroetypes was to the fore. It was all conducted without the slightest hint or mention that Kate McCann had behaved in any other way than that of a model Christain parent. Kate had we were told had acted as almost as some sort of religous ideal of a mother with the love and affection she had nurtured and instilled in her remaining 2 children through her doting mothering ways. There was no mention of Kates abandonment of her two babies who were at the time just 18 months old. There was no mention of her not looking for her 3 year old daughter on the night of her disappearence. There was no mention of her uncoperative attitude which she showed repeatedly to the Portuguese police as they attempted to extract the truth from her during the ensuing 4 months of interrogation, interview, and argument. There equally was no sign or mention of the fact that Kate McCann had done everything yet prescisely nothing to find her disappeared daughter - apart from raise money.

    At 39 Jones seems to display that it is he alone that has all the answers to the worlds problems of poverty and inhumanity but no answers for any enquiring mind as to the truth concerning the McCanns, their words or their actions. One day Jones will be available in Tescos in a ring pull. Till then we'll all just have to make do with his aural liquor of middle of the road philosophies and soothing tones that assure the world all is indeed quite right with it and that Kate McCann really does deserve to be treated not so much as a mother as a Saint.

  13. A Good morning,a nice day to all!

    I thank you,all,also: TEXT,IRON,TTW4!

    In this momente I had no time to read better;later!

    Sweet People you all are!
    Text: really I had approached about the picture but i can say another thing:
    sorry,em português,now.McK ,com ar beatificado e cruxificado tem o seu ventre procriador envolvido pelo diabo e forças malignas= não deveria ter parido.

    Iron: you are a sweet: you put the words here to I understand better and in spanish also.THANKS!!!!!

    TTw4: a must,also. I like to read all.

    See You later!


  14. I found yesterday a deeply emotional day, on the one hand I had kate mccann lying out of her back teeth a seriously neglectful mother being feted and protected etc., on the other I had my mum, nearly 93 lying in her hospital bed in her sitting room not being able to do a thing for herself having suffered from Alzheimer's type dementia for at least the last seventeen years. Now that little lady was a mother, she was always there when we needed her - she never left us alone to go off with friends. She gave up a lot for us and taught us many skills, our education at her hands was vast. She was religious and it was Mothering Sunday not Mothers Day as the devout Catholic kate called it, my sister and I had to find cards with Mothering Sunday on them not Mothers Day as the majority have these days.
    My mum does not deserve what has happened to her but the other creature deserves a worse punishment. It is all self with her not once has she been concerned with what Madeleine might be going through, if she truly believes she is still alive which I doubt.
    I write about my mother not to gain sympathy but to show just how unfair life can be.

  15. Ironside. I've heard this song (Snow Patrol, Chasing cars) before, 2 years ago.



    Good morning everyone it is a cold but sunny day here in Spain.

    Maria you are most welcome and hope you have a good week.

    TTW4 This case has a strong religious hold ,there are many blogs where they are praying for Madeleine and her family(Mormon type)weird people. Also we have the 'Pink' blogs where I have just read we are all being watched by the police for sending complaints to the BBC. They have our IPs and we shall soon be arrested ,locked up where we may no longer harm this saintly mother. We are sure to be damned for not believing the words of cold ,calculating, manipulative Kate Healy.

    The BBC have had my IP for sometime now and I long to be arrested for free speech by Leicestershire Police. I follow their tweets and wonder if they are not only corrupt but very stupid. Recent tweet...'Washing machine stolen from apartment'

    Leicestershire police ask if anyone saw anything strange last week , did they see a person struggling with a washing machine? This could be the person they are looking for.


    See what I mean, have a good day lol


    TTW4 Sign the Petition and stop this corruption...before it really is too late.

  18. Good morning Moler,you write like a daughter who loves her mum very deeply....and you are right your mum did not deserve this. I wish I could offer some words of comfort to make everything right but those words have yet to be written. Just love her,hug her and make her laugh and know you have done everything to make her comfortable.


    Forgot the link...TTW4


    The Intenet when used in the right way is a tool to bring about justice and knowledge. Hollie Greig, who had heard of Hollie? Hollie now has more than 15.000 supporters. Hollie and Ann want to meet and thank every one of them.

  21. Speaking from a foreign country (France), The pro UK press and diffamation articles against this case do not bother me.
    I've read Mr Gonçalo Amaral book in french. The book hasn't been banned here, yet.
    I'v read the official accounts from the PJ, on
    All point towards the same direction-The McCanns' fraud and guilt. Anyone, with a little judgement and logic, will figue out they are lying.and sinking in their lies.
    I must say that I feel incredulity towards the british press. ALL is in the police files. Why are they lying so much? Do they (McCanns, Mitchell and the UK PRESS) really THINK for a second that no one can access the internet, browse the PJ files in english, and read the book in english?
    This is a very big matter - the cover up of a crime, the defiance of one police forces' and reputation, the lies spread by the media, and other vicious acts (lies, lies and lies despite EVIDENCE ON FACTS AND SCIENTIFICAL).

    I am concerned though about the fact that lawyers are working on banning the previous editions realease. Kate Mc Cann, you cannot prevent other countries from hearing loud the truth. You are a disgrace to the human kind. You know, God Knows, some know, most will know SOON. Pathetic liars.
    Agnès Garcia Laville, France

  22. Agnes look..21.000 hits in just three weeks.

    Before there was little interest on the blog of Chris Freind...Start banning books and everyone wants to see what all the fuss is about.


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